Monday, November 27, 2006

The finishing line

I thought that having a new job lined up and heading towards the finishing line here would make my current place of work easier to bear. I arrived this morning and for the first 20 minutes everything was fine but now - for a stupid, pathetic reason - I feel close to tears and want to say, 'Screw the lot of you' and walk out. But I can't and now I just have to sit here with this feeling. It's too early in the day for me to even think about wanting a drink, but the thought did cross my mind and I realise that the thought is always going to cross my mind when things go wrong for me - it's what I do that counts though, and by the time I get home the feeling will have gone, the thought will have gone, and I shall have another sober day.

Later that same day

Lunch out with a friend, a chat, and sanity and good humour are restored. Hurrah for friends!

6 comments:

Mary Christine said...

The thought of a drink will NOT always cross your mind if you do the steps of AA.

Dying for a Drink said...

MC, I consider myself severely reprimanded!

Mary Christine said...

Sorry, I do not mean to sound so harsh. I just wish you would take the easier route and try AA. It is so much easier than trying to quit on your own.

Mea Culpa.

Shadow said...

hey! well done, another notch on your belt! i hear what you say. my mind is just as sneaky. but you did it!!!! yipheeeeeee

Noor Azman Othman GBE said...

That's what friend are for? We will be here for you whenever the going get rough. You got MC and the loyal Shadow to lead you to Soberland.

Love to add you in My Sacred Links. Hope to hear from you soon.

Greeting from Malaysia.

Shannon said...

dying for a drink- I like your attitude... about "this too shall pass" because it does...
I am so glad you are still not drinking :)
Friends and humor do help, I have found friends and humor in AA also, along with a tool kit that helps me in all situations of my life. I am glad that you post and share your honesty- That is awesome