Now I'm looking ahead to Friday night, when I'm going out for dinner with a group of normal-drinking friends, and next week, when I'm going to London on business and a night out is being planned before the Board meeting, and the office Christmas lunch, when the company is actually going to pay for drinks as well as a meal, and I've found myself preparing excuses not to drink - the main ones being, 'I'm driving' or 'I've got to get up early tomorrow'.
But I don't need excuses not to drink, just a reason. The reason is I don't want to.
I am grateful today that :
- I don't crave a drink
- Although I still wake up with a headache every day, it goes by the time I get to work
- My mother encouraged the habit of prayer, because I've remembered how, and it's helping me now
- Although I really really dislike my job, I do have a job, which is more than hundreds of thousands of people in this country can say
- I have the opportunity to do voluntary work, which is more rewarding than I can say