Friday, May 04, 2007

Back on track

Taking one day at a time, working hard, keeping busy, making time for the things I enjoy and taking care of myself, thanking God for each sober day and asking Him for help for tomorrow: it's working. I haven't had a drink since my binge about 10 days ago, and I don't intend to have another. I know I can't have just one drink, enjoy it and put the bottle away. It's depressing to think I can never have a drink again and I don't know if I can commit to that, but I know I don't have to. I just have to commit to staying sober today. I can do that.


Shadow said...

i know it's useless to say don't think you'll never be able to drink again. it's so depressing. because that's all i could think of when i went to rehab. and the resentment towards other people who could drink. whoa. that took a while to get over. and what they told me is i have to remember the bad times. 'cause it's when you forget how bad things were, that's when you relapse - i kept on remembering the wrong picture. of being able to drink and enjoy it and not loose it completely. but those times are long gone. and i'll never get them back. so, i remember the bad times. it helps to keep me sober today. good luck. and i wish you lotsa strength and willpower. you'll get there if you want to!

dAAve said...

Are you getting to AA meetings? If so, you might want to relate about the things you're learning there.
Don't give up, even if you're not quite ready to have a desire to stop. Expose yourself to sober folks.

Clarity said...

How're you doing?